This was what my CRS lecturer mentioned during one of the lectures. And I find it very true.
However, I can't seem to find the 'real me' back already. I put on different masks every single day. So much so that it just comes naturally. I don't know who I am anymore. And I don't like it like that.
I miss being a kid. Someone who can just express how she feels truly. Cry when I'm sad, laugh when I'm happy. As for now, I'll think of how the way people look at me when I do certain actions (or every actions maybe?). I'm easily affected by people's opinions. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing but I need to learn how to differentiate comments that I should or should not take in.
I don't know how to express my true feelings anymore. Of course there are times when I am really happy, or sad. But.. it's just not the same anymore. I laugh harder than I wanted to, I talk lesser than I intended to, I give the type of questions/answers that people expect me to. Every single thing I do is not really for myself, if you get what I mean. My mind is taking over my heart.
Who exactly have I became to?
Everyone of us are actors throughout our life. We play different roles infront of different people, different events and different places.